July 2011
82 posts
“When I was supposed to be awake, I was asleep; when I was supposed to speak, i was silent; when a pleasure offered itself to me, I avoided it. My hunger, my thirst, my loneliness and boredom and fear were all weapons aimed at my enemy, the world. They didn’t matter a whit to the world, of course, and they tormented me, but I got a gruesome satisfaction from my sufferings. They proved my existence. All my integrity seemed to lie in saying No.
So the opportunity to be incarcerated was just too good to resist. It was a very big No—- the biggest No this side of suicide.” —Susana Kaysen, Girl Interrupted.
So the opportunity to be incarcerated was just too good to resist. It was a very big No—- the biggest No this side of suicide.” —Susana Kaysen, Girl Interrupted.
June 2011
98 posts
Dirty
Hysterics
song is dirty. band is hysterics.
The Rabbit Catcher. (sylvia plath)
It was a place of force—
The wind gagging my mouth with my own blown hair,
Tearing off my voice, and the sea
Blinding me with its lights, the lives of the dead
Unreeling in it, spreading like oil.
Barren Hill
Emily Beanblossom
song is Barren Hill. artist is Emily Beanblossom.
(today was a really good day for goodwill. i got a whole bunch of tapes (john lennon, billy idol, alice in chains, pink floyd) and the Evergreen State College Student cd from 2009, which is where i got this track.)
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The Internet might be useful for creating revolution, but all it’s creating in the Western world is more passivity, more disconnection. It’s a fucking nightmare. When I was 20 years old in New York City, do you think you walked into a coffee shop and saw 40 people staring at $2,000 purchases all made from the same company? And those are all the artists! I talk to young musicians now, and they’re just happy to be making records that get released. They don’t even consider that, in the old days, they could making a living by selling records. They don’t even get paid for their work. All that money just goes to Apple and they’re happy to just have people going to their shows. It just took two generations for Apple and similar companies to convince artists they don’t deserve to get paid and that they should just be grateful for the tools that Apple is providing us to make our work, as if we need them to make our art. It’s very, very fucked up.
I’ve stopped using the Internet, basically. I text, but I’ve whittled that down. I’m trying to just revert to a landline. I don’t want to live in computer time. The Internet doesn’t care if we’ve had enough.
” —Antony Hegarty
“…A good teacher can save a young poet years by simply telling him things he need not waste time on, like trying to will originality or trying to share an experience in language or trying to remain true to the facts (but that’s the way it really happened). Roethke used to mumble: “Jesus, you don’t want to say that.” And you didn’t, but you hadn’t yet become ruthless enough to create. You still felt some deep moral obligation to “reality” and “truth”, and of course it wasn’t moral obligation at all but fear of yourself and your inner life.”
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Richard Hugo in chapter four of The Triggering Town.
(note- my friend michelle hooks me up with all the best books, like this one. she’s the coolest.)
“The experience of making and taking in culture is now, for the first time in human history, a condition of almost paralyzing overabundance. For millennia it was a condition of scarcity; and all the ways we regard things we want but cannot have, in those faraway days, stood between people and the art or music they needed to have: yearning, craving, imagining the absent object so fully that when the real thing appears in your hands, it almost doesn’t match up. Nobody will ever again experience what Keith Richards and Mick Jagger experienced in Dartford, scrounging for blues records.”
—Dan Chiasson
omg david bowie and lou reed can get married now
won’t happen. first of all, david bowie and iggy pop are in love with each other. second of all, I know for a fact that iggy pop used to make fun of lou reed and thinks he’s a dumbass. therefore, iggy would never let david marry lou. yep.
“…. I am surrounded by trees, tourists, little kids. It is sunny, and in the past few days I’ve seen two dead bodies that used to be people I loved, entered two different churches, seen many people cry, many people laugh, hung out with a friend fighting cancer, and all i can think about is life, life, life —- cherish it and live it fully, because sure it is stupid, and sure it is futile, but it’s also crazy and weird and intense and surprising and beautiful and full of amazing music, so listen to the Fugs and don’t waste time being pissed at what you should have done. Cheers to life, cheers to nothing, and Carpe Diem, motherfuckers.”
—from BRAIN WORKS SLOW by Alex Ratcharge, in Maximum RockNRoll #338
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“You’re all going to die. And then you’re going to be dead for way longer than you’re going to be alive. That’s mostly what you’re going to be. You’re just dead people that didn’t die yet.”
—Louis C.K.
Sex
Weird TV
song is sex. band is weird tv.
“No one is illegal. The people you call illegal are human beings, whose only crime was being born on the wrong side of a border: A border that was created as a result of an unjust war. When they become desperate, and unable to support their families, they will do what any of you would do, which is look for opportunity elsewhere. Ask yourself, if you were living in a nation where there was very little opportunity, and you knew that by going to the country right next door you might make your life and the lives of your children better, wouldn’t you do it? Wouldn’t any good parent do that? To say no is to say that people should suffer because of circumstances that are beyond their control. Is that really what you want your country to be about?”
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Tim Wise, anti-racism author, essayist, and educator. (via loveyourchaos)
(i got in a bit of an argument with my father about immigration today… this just seems awfully fitting.)
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All I Have To Do Is Dream
Everly Brothers
band is the everly brothers. song is all i have to do is dream.
